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Didn’t really say, it was just a community post on youtubejust in youtube or onlyfans too?
Didn’t really say, it was just a community post on youtubejust in youtube or onlyfans too?
usually something to do with their internal sense of self. it's not absurd tbh; the desire to make sense of that which is intangible, unknowable... i can see why an individual would forsake all else in pursuit of some ethereal/divine knowledge/understanding.Now wtf is wrong with OF girls these days, spiritual awakening she said
Wtf does that even mean
she is back to YT... any news from OF?
She should do a "Fuck with Fans Gangbang". That would fix her brainYesterday she released This text:
I was able to utilize some energy to film…let’s go! If you pray or meditate or talk to spirits (it’s all the same to me), if you could genuinely add me to your prayer list just like — help me work through this blockage that keeps happening with YouTube and help me get clarity on what I’m suppose to be doing. There’s a lot of sexual undertones to my ASMR that I embraced because I was like what’s wrong with adult ASMR? It’s like watching an adult show. Just because it isn’t wholesome made for literal children doesn’t mean it’s bad or not appropriate for YouTube (or so I thought). Their platform is so weird (my channel has been demonetized since April for sexual gratification content) and then it puts me in this place where I start to feel a lot of shame and guilt around my sexuality like there’s something wrong with me somehow because of this. Just giving you some insight into this loop I’ve been living for forever now it seems. I am so DONE hitting my head you know Hopefully everyone likes wholesome, bone dry unsensual ASMR or better yet something will come to me that will help unite us and entertain us and give us some virtual fun like that’s all I’m trying to do. FML. Everything is so FUCKING SERIOUS blah blah bosses, rules, guidelines, control it’s all so wrong!!! Ugh! I CANT STAND BEING CONTROLLED lol Anyway, thank you for reading my live diary and temper tantrums. Feel free to give me advice or just live diary back to me. Life is just so fucking insane sometimes and there’s so many people around you can’t even scream AHH. I’m about to go scream in a pillow brb.
Yet she's taking trips to tropical islands. Either the alimony she gets is significant, or her new man is well-off. I get she still wants to work, but embrace something and stick to it. Be sexual on OF and just do more traditional ASMR on YouTube, or don't. No one wants to pay for YT level content on OF
I think she just means she's not married. She showed her last bf on her IG a few times not that long ago, and someone is paying for tropical island getaways.In one of her more recent posts she said she was a single mom, however I can't speak as to whether that's true or just something to say to keep people around that are delirious enough to believe they'd have a shot with her
edit: found the post, from August 15th:
Hiiii! So, I have a real question that I need your honest feedback to help answer. PLEASE, I know it’s long but I really need your help here!!! I am trying to sort out where I am with what I do currently in terms of being sexual here. I have found that what started as a way that made me feel liberated quickly turned into me feeling like my only value I provide is sexual which made me shut down. I do like making artistic content like my MarieMur and some lingerie videos and photosets even. I have definitely pushed my limits a bit or made myself do ASMR when I didn’t want to and that makes me feel like I’m not being authentic. Not that I don’t like ASMR, I do. Ultimately, I like being able to connect with people and ASMR is a way to give some pieces of love and comfort which brings us here… I do want to be able to go back to making content and tell myself that it’s all consensual here and we realize that this isn’t “real” but it’s entertainment and just have boundaries on what I let people say to me. If you like my content, you can buy it and that’s how I know you enjoy it. I love talking to you, but about real life stuff. I want to be a source of love and light in your life and help you along your path to find your happiness within yourself. I am having a hard time seeing how what I do now aligns with that. But, what I do allows me to be in a financial position to easily take care of my 4 as a single mom and has changed my life in the matrix in a way that I’ve always wanted. I just feel so weird about it all now and looking for reassurance that I am not somehow a bad person that is doing bad things here or holding you back in someway by playing on your sexual desires for my own financial gain. You mean a lot to me. I don’t want to do you or anyone like that so I really appreciate your honesty and thanks for reading!
Is this from after the spiritual awakening??
nope this is old stuff she has posted something new but it´s just a photoset with teasing videosIs this from after the spiritual awakening??
Received this yesterday in my dms, I dont know how old this is to be honestIs this from after the spiritual awakening??