No, she regularly would join discord for community nights, complain about whatever, say she had to do something, then wouldnt be in discord for a few hours then would just leave. No one talked to her regularly in voice chat besides mods. Not to mention she would go hide in mod chat.
And I was one of those dummies who spent enough pre-OF days to "be able to have access to her after streams." Not afraid to admit it, I was spending money to feel like I had friends and people who cared about me (when I donated) but it helped me through my depression at the time. Looking back, dumb as fuck but the mods back then carried the community nights. Despite my angst against some of them, it was all them, not her. She has never given a fuck about her community.
I still laugh about her beating me 1v1 in COD. I can blame it on being drunk at 1030am cause that was my lifestyle, but she still beat me. She used to remind me of that in fun. It is not fun to watch her pull the same substance abuse I did. It sucks to watch/hear her now. It's like watching self-destruction