Does she hate her life that much that she has to always be drunk and/or high? She's the one who chose to turn her back on her community and switch from gaming to hot tubs then to OF. now all she and her simp Mod army does is to push her "spicy" sites. If I had to live like that, maybe I'd have to always be numb too. Not sure she realizes she put herself in this situation and has the power to end it. But she is just too addicted to money and attention and sadly there are all those idiots who keep supporting her for that fake "thank you, i love you so much" routine.