Dunno about you but I'm not here for any parasocial feelings bro, I just want to wack and take the poison out.
It is actually sad to say "I see her as a girlfriend stand in". You should see this as a transaction if you're paying, if you're not just as motivation to get the jack off, same thing when you listen music to work out, or see a comedy movie to laugh. It's just incentives, not real life.
And gonna be honest, if I could never feel horny ever, I would. This porn shit clearly isn't making any improvements on people from comments I see around this block.