Must be something wrong in her head, she could play TFT offline for 4 hours (get boosted also), do a 4 hour cooking stream in a skimpy fit and rake in the cash.
It's like some Dunning-Kruger type superiority complex. She's convinced herself she's good at these things and desperately wants to prove it on stream. Every game she dabbles in she ends up being mediocre and always has the saltiest rants about her opponents where the entire purpose is to gaslight her chat into believing everyone is evil tryhards compared to her being a humble gamer gal who can still hang with the higher ranks! (she can't)
It's hilarious when she will pull out a million excuses on why she lost ranging from everybody got lucky except her, she is the unluckiest player, Riot game devs are literally watching her stream and targeting her, stream snipers, LOL.
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