Discussion Do you have a porn addiction? / Mental health check in

[Snowmilano]

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There are days where I'll check this site multiple times a day. It's probably the first thing I do when I wake up and last thing I do before I sleep.

I'm definitely addicted to porn. I've been doing this for many years pretty much everyday so it has affected all aspects of my life. I've lost a lot of friends and and view women more like objects and less like humans beings.

I lose control of my life when I watch a lot porn. So my goal is to stop visiting sites like this one.

I realize that everyone functions differently and can probably find a balance with porn, but I'm unable to do that and end up bingeing/edging. So I want to completely stop it.

 

[BornAgainFapper]

I'm autosexual so of course I have one.

 

[hitmanboy47]

I think so.

I discovered porn in middle school, many years ago. At the time they were in 3gp format. They were very short videos and really low resolution compared to what we are used to today.

The turning point was when I masturbated for the first time. I will never forget the first time I had an orgasm: a rush of pleasure I had never felt before that went through my whole body. I remember the palpitations of my eyes and my legs twitching as if in convulsions. When the media devices began to be more capacious I secretly began to edit videos with sony vegas.

I went from general porn to specific porn, trying to find the perfect scene with the details that excited me the most. Needless to say, I didn't find the perfect scene and I never will. It is an illusion but it was one of the motivations why I would go on watching porn.

It is as if I were the actor who fucks the woman for whom I feel attraction.

How many years have passed since I was a teenager and how many videos have passed through my hands.

I know why I am addicted to pornography and the motivation lies in the fact that I have never had a relationship with a woman. Not only sexual but also as a friendship.

Pornography tries to relieve the frustration I have cultivated over the years.

But I don't blame it on women; after all, it's my own fault that I've never jumped in or made an attempt in exposing myself.

That said, I consider pornography useful for stimulating one's sexual fantasies and not to be ashamed of at all.

Just remember that when you want to experiment with your partner you are not looking at a porn star and consent is essential.

However, its abuse will also have its negative effects, but here it varies from person to person.

This is my experience with the world of pornography.

PS: Certain hentai in manga format manage to strike me in the soul: not only arousal but also of emotional involvement.

 

[Smegalfx]

Definitely.

It is pretty bad. I'm talking to 3 different women rn, all 3 of which i have had sexual encounters. but im still here. still watching worse and worse stuff

its an addiction if it gets in the way of your life. and yh, its getting in the way of mine. Best I could go was a month before using again. and once you use again its back to the extremes. i fucking hate it.

shit ain't enjoyable when i'm questioning what i watch. it aint enjoyable when i wish i was the pornstar and the only thing holding me back is "reality" and maybe location. idk, and its too embarrassing to bring up irl. Everyone knows im sad and this is a pretty substantial part of why.

but im still here. so guess im losing rn

 

[BurnerAcct619]

I've had a porn addiction for what feels like as long as I've been able to access the internet freely, which was right around the rise of Pornhub & tube sites. I don't always think of it as an addiction because it's the only way I get that sexual release, but as I progress through my 30s now I'm seeing that I've had an unhealthy obsession. I definitely hit the point of no return when Th-thub arose, where I would find myself keeping tabs open, downloading GBs worth of whomever I fancied, keeping so many folders & videos on my phone.

Not for a lack of trying though. I've deleted a lot of porn from my laptop and barely use it now. I've been deleting vids from my phone (and locking things in a secure folder & another drive). It's not foolproof, but it's a start. So is having a thread on a porn board to discuss it on. Never had a place to release the shame of this issue, so it's appreciated.

If you read these posts: it's not easy & you'll slip. Best thing to do for yourself is to be gentle & to keep trying.

Edit: just wanted to add a few extra points I've found helpful

1: share your journey with only your closest of kin. Having even 1 or 2 people to confide in for accountability goes a long way.

2: never feel ashamed for discovering & exploring what you enjoy, but definitely set boundaries & recognize when you're crossing them.

 

[bennyhahna]

I definitely had an addiction, where i would subscribe to multiple OFs and check the same site multiple times a day for updates. I think I ahve it under control now, but you have to be careful because its easy to slip back in.

 

[randomuserjoined1]

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I agree with this. I feel that I have had a really bad problem. I had a collection of at least 3-4 TB. Just collecting everything I thought was hot and sexy. I would save it, but never really go back and take a look. I still can't say exactly why I did it, but maybe FOMO? Like a precious or something. Either way, I have deleted that archive and am trying to move past it by just going in every once and awhile to get a fap in and get out. Trying to not get too attached to anything or going too far down the rabbit hole.

 

[Falkenrath]

Everybody on this site should probably watch this:

 

[ComradeJP]

Maybe mental health because of i have overthinking mindset where i become violent thinking that everyone are same just idiots and nuisance wishing them something worst.

 

[thefass513]

I grew up when there was no internet or close, so finding the little porn you could find was a finding.
Now that the internet is full of every kind of porn you can imagine and pretty girls do all to fulfill every fantasy, the vision i had of porn has changed.

Sometimes i feel that i'm losing time, i have a little spare during the day to do my hobbies/gaming/porn and sometimes i feel that i'm giving too much to search and download videos that maybe i'll never watch again.
But addiction is when you can't say stop by yourself and you feel forced to continue: if you can quit when you feel you must, then it's not addiction it's just entertainment.

To reply to the first post of this thread, if you feel sad watching porn then just quit, do something else which catches your attention, like an hobby or a game or a friend, then give those energy to a healthy relationship and try to find a partner, he/she will fulfill your needs for sure.
There's no better help than from a true friend, to me, and if you have none to trust then, and only then, refer to a specialist.

Close affections are the best thing we can have in life, which is meant to be shared to be appreciated. Porn, we can't share it.

 

[Don Scar]

The problem with quitting porn is that you have to replace it with something. I started being a degenerate almost 10 years ago now because the things I liked back then stopped being enjoyable and left a void.

Collecting porn and jerking off filled that void. For the moment this make existence bearable.

 

[Vask]

Unfortunately I do, I'm just burning through my bank account even though I long come to terms that none of these chicks care about me, it's weird ik and it's an ongoing struggle when one day I just get the urge to delete my OF account, then a week later I'm making a new one and resubbing to the same chicks.

I wouldn't consider this much progress but I did cut down on subs and spending on PPVs to like 2 chicks and a PPV here and there if the length or preview makes it worth it compared to last year where I was subbed to 6 and buying almost everything they were releasing.

I'm slowly crawling out that hole boys, We'll all beat this somehow.

 

[sphloverrr]

yeah, i’m extremely addicted to porn i jerk off 10x a day, i’ve completely ruined myself i can only stroke for minute then i’ll cum i’m so ashamed of myself my self confidence is so low i’m addicted to the hotwife/cuck/blacked/qos genre that’s all i think about i look and feel disgusting i don’t see myself getting married, who wants to marry someone who only lasts seconds? no one.

plus i’ve spent a lot of ppvs and subscriptions i’ve deleted accounts and made another buying all the same and new ppv i really want it to stop but i don’t know how 😔

 

[John Lennon69]

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turn off the internet

 

[BurnerAcct619]

So it's been about a month since I last posted here. I can say that I've reduced the amount of porn on my phone by more than half and am between getting myself back into old hobbies and exploring new interests as a means to distract myself from browsing for new porn. It's just a small victory, but to be able to see myself not having to scramble to turn down the volume or change my screen because I had porn on very soon feels like something to celebrate.

Hoping all of you are able to achieve a victory soon as well.

 

[Gtyruush]

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Small victories is still victories

As they say, Change is never easy, But anything worthy is never easy

I myself am trying to limit my porn addiction

It's definitely not easy, But small steps at a time

 

[Gtyruush]

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That's the problem with porn

You watch so much of it, You become desensitize so much that you constantly seek out more to get that dopamine hit

You feel that porn gives you more gratification than if you were to actually go outside & enjoy life

I think most guys here probably were exposed to porn at a young age that it's become something of a almost daily seekout

I remember watching this thing on YouTube not to long ago that was recorded in 2004 about the effects of watching too much porn & basically can have the same effects of someone constantly seeking out drugs for the same dopamine hits

The other thing is porn is more widespread these days

20 years ago, Porn was just starting to make waves on the internet, Up until that point, There was magazines, videos/DVDs PPV porn, adult conventions etc

Now we have more access to porn than ever to porn & most of it is entirely free at the click of a button

If it's not on our computers, It's on our phones, It's on internet forums & other forms of access

If i could go back 20 years, I would say no to watching porn, But I was unintentionally exposed to porn from seeing it on TV, Computers

If I had known the true effects of watching too much porn, I would have a much different approach to how i view it

I'm slowly trying to teach myself i don't need porn to give me pleasure & trying to actually enjoy life with hobbies & catching up with friends

It's a tough journey, You gotta start somewhere

Do i regret ever watching porn? Yes/No, But that's a whole other discussion for another time

Stay strong Kings, If you can make small steps to altering your viewing habits, That's better than nothing

 

[Smegalfx]

Well everyone, Im finally back, left before end of September, was probably gonna leave forever but then my best friend killed himself and everything is crumbling around me, shit is so fucking difficult, so here I am, back to the fucking pit. Haven't looked at anything yet but that's about to change

 

[BurnerAcct619]

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My condolences to you. Have you talked to anyone to process your emotions? You don't have to suffer the loss alone.

 

[Smegalfx]

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Close Friends but I had a meltdown towards some of them so we aren't actively speaking, which I understand, they are hurting too. Probably after today or tomorrow, I will once again try to quit this poison, I hit 53 days with no problems until a couple days after my friend disappeared. Shame too, it was my best attempt and I was so confident I was making progress. Oh well.