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Simp Chat Lilasoles / xlovelila / Cutedoclila - Discussion Thread

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Probably the best tits on OF! I'll get the discussion started - what are the chances she's a doctor? Hard to believe but not impossible I guess that she has time to run the page, make content, and do residency. There's also a few pics of her with nail extentions which I don't think hospitals would allow, but maybe she was doing a chill rotation at the time.
 
I'm out of the loop and it's been a year since I subscribed to anything of her but she used to churn her PPV over and over. Her paid and free page are on a schedule to send a PPV with the same descriptive message for each one.

I'm also sure she has a back log of nudes she taken for the one or two picture per few day for the paid page. The videos she posted on the wall itself were just few seconds long as well.

Obviously this was a year ago so I'm not sure if things have changed and she has become more active but that was how active she was and it really wasn't active.
 
I have mixed feelings about these no-face accounts. Many got their start on reddit through gonewild. But when they started to monetize through onlyfans, it felt like "having your cake and eating it too." If a girl involved in this business can't be "all in" with their face, my wallet is never going to be "all in" for them. I'd rather spend my money on the ladies who really put themselves out there...but that's just my personal opinion.

Having said that, Lila has some nice content but I don't follow her consistently. She seems smart and sweet but I think it goes back to my feelings on no-face content. Eventually, the content just starts to feel repetitive too. I follow her free account and it's often repeats that are labeled as "new" so I've had no reason to buy anything.

Lastly, I know she lurks these forums because there was a thread before the great purge mentioning this. A lurker was asking for help on the forum because Lila accused him of leaking content because his reddit name was similar to someone's simpcity name. She must've informed whatever agency these no-face girls use because he was blocked on onlyfans and reddit by Lila, xlovelyadrianax, tastynova, kaylee, supershycharlotte, and likely some others. That alone left a bad taste in my mouth that an innocent simp got caught in the crossfire of some overzealous coven of no-face models deciding to excommunicate someone over the fear that a few photos and videos might be leaked here. Just my two cents.
 
Her stuff has been really good lately, she had a vid were she tests out a massive dildo which was hot. She seems willing to push herself to do new things
I used to sub but stopped when she did the same stuff over and over. Considering re-subbing if this is true. Any previews of this new one?
 
Hi I'd love to chime in because as mentioned, I do lurk on leak forums 😊

1. Effort: I rarely have time to use my free page so a while ago I did spend a day scheduling out PPV for the rest of the year. I only sell my older content on my free page so it does repeat every 30 days - however I manually run my paid page and manually send out everything. I don't have the time or will to put out new videos constantly since I only like to film when I'm genuinely in the mood. There's no "schedule" but I will resend out previous PPV to those who haven't seen it yet in between new videos. Also, I stopped creating as much new content when I discovered my leaks. My content is very amateur, vulnerable, and honest, and I have a hard time continuing to make that content knowing it'll inevitably be shared with a much larger audience than intended. Considering you've been one of the biggest source of leaks for me, I'd love to have a mature conversation with you to better understand why you choose to do this and so I can explain my side of how it feels to be violated in this way.

2. Simpwrangler: I'm sure by now you're well aware of the reasons I don't show my face. I have a whole career outside of this. If a girl puts her face out there, this is likely her entire career and she's fully relying on it to financially support her indefinitely. I think those who enjoy truly amateur creators who are more "girl next door" and do this as a fun side gig rather than a career can appreciate those of us who choose not to show our face. Lastly, I have reason to believe you're the "simp" you're defending so the only thing I'd like to clear up is that I don't and have never used an agency. I think the difference in my page compared to agency run pages should be obvious. I do, however, have friendships and group chats with lots of other creators. We're pretty good at cross-referencing notes and identifying a leaker and I'm not surprised that one would get mass-blocked as a result. And if we were to get it wrong, better safe than sorry because I don't think you're fully grasping how mentally and financially damaging leaks are to us.

3. As for the purpose of this discussion to determine if I really am a physician or not, I guess you'll never know! Everyone can choose to believe what they want and I don't blame anyone for being cynical. I decided to share that side of my life because I want to fight the stigma associated with "girls with Onlyfans" and I wanted to set an example that educated, professional women can do this too. Whether you believe me or not, I know my truth and what I stand for. I know that I present my genuine self when I speak to my subscribers and I insist on only doing things I enjoy and find ethical (even if that comes at a huge financial disadvantage to me) and I go to sleep every night proud of myself and everything I've accomplished. I know this is a leaks forum but I truly hope you all can say the same for yourselves. If not, please consider doing the bare minimum by choosing NOT to hurt another human being by posting their explicit content publicly.

All love,
Lila
 
To be fair, I shared like what? 5 PPVs, while there's some guy that drops 10 in a row. 5 seems like much but there's like 30+ other PPV that I never posted. 👀
 
Hi I'd love to chime in because as mentioned, I do lurk on leak forums 😊

1. Effort: I rarely have time to use my free page so a while ago I did spend a day scheduling out PPV for the rest of the year. I only sell my older content on my free page so it does repeat every 30 days - however I manually run my paid page and manually send out everything. I don't have the time or will to put out new videos constantly since I only like to film when I'm genuinely in the mood. There's no "schedule" but I will resend out previous PPV to those who haven't seen it yet in between new videos. Also, I stopped creating as much new content when I discovered my leaks. My content is very amateur, vulnerable, and honest, and I have a hard time continuing to make that content knowing it'll inevitably be shared with a much larger audience than intended. Considering you've been one of the biggest source of leaks for me, I'd love to have a mature conversation with you to better understand why you choose to do this and so I can explain my side of how it feels to be violated in this way.

2. Simpwrangler: I'm sure by now you're well aware of the reasons I don't show my face. I have a whole career outside of this. If a girl puts her face out there, this is likely her entire career and she's fully relying on it to financially support her indefinitely. I think those who enjoy truly amateur creators who are more "girl next door" and do this as a fun side gig rather than a career can appreciate those of us who choose not to show our face. Lastly, I have reason to believe you're the "simp" you're defending so the only thing I'd like to clear up is that I don't and have never used an agency. I think the difference in my page compared to agency run pages should be obvious. I do, however, have friendships and group chats with lots of other creators. We're pretty good at cross-referencing notes and identifying a leaker and I'm not surprised that one would get mass-blocked as a result. And if we were to get it wrong, better safe than sorry because I don't think you're fully grasping how mentally and financially damaging leaks are to us.

3. As for the purpose of this discussion to determine if I really am a physician or not, I guess you'll never know! Everyone can choose to believe what they want and I don't blame anyone for being cynical. I decided to share that side of my life because I want to fight the stigma associated with "girls with Onlyfans" and I wanted to set an example that educated, professional women can do this too. Whether you believe me or not, I know my truth and what I stand for. I know that I present my genuine self when I speak to my subscribers and I insist on only doing things I enjoy and find ethical (even if that comes at a huge financial disadvantage to me) and I go to sleep every night proud of myself and everything I've accomplished. I know this is a leaks forum but I truly hope you all can say the same for yourselves. If not, please consider doing the bare minimum by choosing NOT to hurt another human being by posting their explicit content publicly.

All love,
Lila
The teasing of your mouth in videos is plenty to keep me satisfied and horny for more.

Thank you for the amazing content and genuine interaction with us!
 
Hi I'd love to chime in because as mentioned, I do lurk on leak forums 😊

1. Effort: I rarely have time to use my free page so a while ago I did spend a day scheduling out PPV for the rest of the year. I only sell my older content on my free page so it does repeat every 30 days - however I manually run my paid page and manually send out everything. I don't have the time or will to put out new videos constantly since I only like to film when I'm genuinely in the mood. There's no "schedule" but I will resend out previous PPV to those who haven't seen it yet in between new videos. Also, I stopped creating as much new content when I discovered my leaks. My content is very amateur, vulnerable, and honest, and I have a hard time continuing to make that content knowing it'll inevitably be shared with a much larger audience than intended. Considering you've been one of the biggest source of leaks for me, I'd love to have a mature conversation with you to better understand why you choose to do this and so I can explain my side of how it feels to be violated in this way.

2. Simpwrangler: I'm sure by now you're well aware of the reasons I don't show my face. I have a whole career outside of this. If a girl puts her face out there, this is likely her entire career and she's fully relying on it to financially support her indefinitely. I think those who enjoy truly amateur creators who are more "girl next door" and do this as a fun side gig rather than a career can appreciate those of us who choose not to show our face. Lastly, I have reason to believe you're the "simp" you're defending so the only thing I'd like to clear up is that I don't and have never used an agency. I think the difference in my page compared to agency run pages should be obvious. I do, however, have friendships and group chats with lots of other creators. We're pretty good at cross-referencing notes and identifying a leaker and I'm not surprised that one would get mass-blocked as a result. And if we were to get it wrong, better safe than sorry because I don't think you're fully grasping how mentally and financially damaging leaks are to us.

3. As for the purpose of this discussion to determine if I really am a physician or not, I guess you'll never know! Everyone can choose to believe what they want and I don't blame anyone for being cynical. I decided to share that side of my life because I want to fight the stigma associated with "girls with Onlyfans" and I wanted to set an example that educated, professional women can do this too. Whether you believe me or not, I know my truth and what I stand for. I know that I present my genuine self when I speak to my subscribers and I insist on only doing things I enjoy and find ethical (even if that comes at a huge financial disadvantage to me) and I go to sleep every night proud of myself and everything I've accomplished. I know this is a leaks forum but I truly hope you all can say the same for yourselves. If not, please consider doing the bare minimum by choosing NOT to hurt another human being by posting their explicit content publicly.

All love,
Lila
I'm actually really glad you came to respond and set the record straight. The rumor mill is often relentless and very few content creators want to directly engage with this community, beyond monitoring it. If it's true you don't use an agency, then that really sets you apart from the pack. I also applaud you for your integrity and ethics in what you do. That's also rare. This community is ultimately built upon the backs of porn enthusiasts, collectors, as well as fans (cynical or not) and lurkers who all desire a place to view, share, discuss and vent about creators and their content. So it's great you've chosen to make yourself known and heard.

Obviously, you may not get the sympathy you're looking for from this community when it comes to people posting explicit content in the forum. Some might even observe a disconnect when you openly share your nude body to the public through various social media to promote your page, with thousands of followers and millions of views. Twitter even incentivizes re-posting for further engagement. From the outside perspective, it can come across as less of an invasion of privacy and more about the potential loss of income. But I hear and understand where you're coming from with your personal boundaries and will try to improve my understanding further. If you feel betrayed by fans who decide to share your content, I am genuinely sorry and acknowledge that feeling too.

When it comes to sharing paid content, we can argue until we're blue in the face over the ethics of sharing media and art (and I know you would always win that argument anyway). In that sense, none of us are saints here. Some will share anything that isn't nailed to the ground. Others share content because not everyone can afford everything they'd like to see or they want to give back to the community that allowed them to see something profoundly good. And still some others share because there's a desire for having offline copies of content that they paid for (some of these fan sites run video like complete ass and we just want to be able to watch the damn video without buffering; or maybe we want to cast a non-DRM video to our 4k televisions instead of watching on our phones). Also, at any time, a creator can quit, alter their page, or a fan site can suspend a creator's account...and all that media goes *poof* with that fan's money effectively giving them nothing but a memory.

Beyond the preservation aspect, there is also the model accountability factor. There is no official review system or discussion forum for fan sites. While I understand I am writing to someone on the other side who has likely experienced headaches from fans and fan sites, from our perspective, we do not see fan sites holding creators accountable for false advertising or other nefarious activity. SimpCity isn't perfect but it's what we have. Being able to gauge a creator's content and get feedback from existing fans is important for a multitude of reasons that I'm sure you can understand. There are lots of scams and people have lost a lot of money for misleading content. Creators also often delete and re-use content to re-monetize so fans have to pay again just to regain access (Note: I'm not saying you do ANY of these things but only that there are so many others who do this). Whether you want to believe me or not, I have chosen to purchase content and support creators after being able to check things out on this site. I have even had members here DM me that they've chosen to sub to accounts because they liked what they saw. So if you're here to tell us your story and validate the merits of supporting your accounts, you're in another great spot to inform the community that you will treat any level-headed spender with fairness, transparency, and respect.

Having said all this, I realize that no matter what we might do or say here, we're going to seem like leeches to you. That's obviously your choice just as you mentioned our choice to believe whether you're a physician (I personally believe you; you've certainly proven yourself sharply intelligent, driven and tenacious enough). Regardless, I have no desire to purchase or share anything further to exacerbate your stress. So you needn't waste anymore of your valuable bandwidth on this silly simp who is one insignificant prick in the grand scheme of your life. I genuinely hope you enjoy your stable career, satisfied mind and fulfilled life while we enviously jerk off with our tears in this dark corner of the internet (self-deprecating sarcasm intended on the latter).

Lastly, if you just want to function as the Eye of Sauron here, that's your right, and I think everyone would get that. But...if you're going to be here, I invite you to continue engaging with your fans, show how you're different and worth every purchase, and not let the conversation die with your previous mic drop (epic and fabulous, by the way). Peace. 🌈
 
I'm actually really glad you came to respond and set the record straight. The rumor mill is often relentless and very few content creators want to directly engage with this community, beyond monitoring it. If it's true you don't use an agency, then that really sets you apart from the pack. I also applaud you for your integrity and ethics in what you do. That's also rare. This community is ultimately built upon the backs of porn enthusiasts, collectors, as well as fans (cynical or not) and lurkers who all desire a place to view, share, discuss and vent about creators and their content. So it's great you've chosen to make yourself known and heard.

Obviously, you may not get the sympathy you're looking for from this community when it comes to people posting explicit content in the forum. Some might even observe a disconnect when you openly share your nude body to the public through various social media to promote your page, with thousands of followers and millions of views. Twitter even incentivizes re-posting for further engagement. From the outside perspective, it can come across as less of an invasion of privacy and more about the potential loss of income. But I hear and understand where you're coming from with your personal boundaries and will try to improve my understanding further. If you feel betrayed by fans who decide to share your content, I am genuinely sorry and acknowledge that feeling too.

When it comes to sharing paid content, we can argue until we're blue in the face over the ethics of sharing media and art (and I know you would always win that argument anyway). In that sense, none of us are saints here. Some will share anything that isn't nailed to the ground. Others share content because not everyone can afford everything they'd like to see or they want to give back to the community that allowed them to see something profoundly good. And still some others share because there's a desire for having offline copies of content that they paid for (some of these fan sites run video like complete ass and we just want to be able to watch the damn video without buffering; or maybe we want to cast a non-DRM video to our 4k televisions instead of watching on our phones). Also, at any time, a creator can quit, alter their page, or a fan site can suspend a creator's account...and all that media goes *poof* with that fan's money effectively giving them nothing but a memory.

Beyond the preservation aspect, there is also the model accountability factor. There is no official review system or discussion forum for fan sites. While I understand I am writing to someone on the other side who has likely experienced headaches from fans and fan sites, from our perspective, we do not see fan sites holding creators accountable for false advertising or other nefarious activity. SimpCity isn't perfect but it's what we have. Being able to gauge a creator's content and get feedback from existing fans is important for a multitude of reasons that I'm sure you can understand. There are lots of scams and people have lost a lot of money for misleading content. Creators also often delete and re-use content to re-monetize so fans have to pay again just to regain access (Note: I'm not saying you do ANY of these things but only that there are so many others who do this). Whether you want to believe me or not, I have chosen to purchase content and support creators after being able to check things out on this site. I have even had members here DM me that they've chosen to sub to accounts because they liked what they saw. So if you're here to tell us your story and validate the merits of supporting your accounts, you're in another great spot to inform the community that you will treat any level-headed spender with fairness, transparency, and respect.

Having said all this, I realize that no matter what we might do or say here, we're going to seem like leeches to you. That's obviously your choice just as you mentioned our choice to believe whether you're a physician (I personally believe you; you've certainly proven yourself sharply intelligent, driven and tenacious enough). Regardless, I have no desire to purchase or share anything further to exacerbate your stress. So you needn't waste anymore of your valuable bandwidth on this silly simp who is one insignificant prick in the grand scheme of your life. I genuinely hope you enjoy your stable career, satisfied mind and fulfilled life while we enviously jerk off with our tears in this dark corner of the internet (self-deprecating sarcasm intended on the latter).

Lastly, if you just want to function as the Eye of Sauron here, that's your right, and I think everyone would get that. But...if you're going to be here, I invite you to continue engaging with your fans, show how you're different and worth every purchase, and not let the conversation die with your previous mic drop (epic and fabulous, by the way). Peace. 🌈

Thank you for giving me more insight on why people choose to share leaks, it's definitely given me more to think about. I tend to see the best in people and I don't assume that all leaks are shared with malice (although I'm sure some are) and I think there's often just a lack of consideration for how it would make the creator feel. Here are my personal thoughts and experiences with leaks:
  • I think one of the greatest things about Onlyfans is the power it gives the creator. I created one to express my sexual side and I genuinely enjoy the thought of others watching me, but I want control over who it is. When it comes to my full length PPV videos, I film them with the intention that only those who I feel truly appreciate me will see it. When I attach a price tag to a video, that price isn't what I think will maximize profits or anything like that. That price is what I personally value the video at, and I only want those who agree with that value to watch it. I understand that it's not accessible or reasonable for everyone to pay that price, and I'm okay with losing sales due to that. I understand that those that are willing to buy my content as opposed to only consuming free porn do it because they care enough about seeing me specifically. This is the audience I create my videos for - the ones who value my content as more than "just another porn video".
  • My videos are very personal to me. I only film when I'm genuinely in the mood, which is why I usually only have 1-3 new PPV a month. I choose to only create content with a genuine orgasm and a real display of me enjoying myself. It features my real voice, real moans, real dirty talk, and real orgasms. It really does turn me on to share this side of myself with those who have come to value this about me, but it's never been meant for a wide audience. When these videos get leaked it feels so violating because it's my real vulnerable self on display, not a character or a performance.
  • There was a period of time where my videos were being leaked almost immediately after I released them. When I film a new video I'm genuinely excited and proud of it and so immediately losing all control over it was really painful. It's not just about the financial effects, if I wanted to counteract that I could release 3 vids a week so there's always something new that hasn't been leaked yet but I wouldn't be staying true to myself. Honestly, this experience really made me want to stop filming altogether. I didn't know how to make content that’s raw and vulnerable while accepting that it would immediately be made public against my will. I still find it harder to let go and be my natural self on camera now and as a result I film myself less frequently.
  • This leads to my last point which is that the threat of leaks negatively affects the quality of content. For example, I decided to start creating partial face content because I had the desire to share even more of myself with those who I thought were loyal fans. Getting those leaked has been the most devastating, and this is further amplified because I feel like my privacy is in jeopardy. I'm much more likely to get identified in those videos and I only intended for them to be seen by a small audience of my most loyal fans. At this point, even though I would love to create some full-face content one day, I don't feel like it's an option. I'm a lot more distrustful and it would be stupid for me to risk those being leaked with how serious the potential consequences could be.

Now to address a few of your points:
I agree that there’s a big difference between resharing content that I publicly posted for free vs PPV. Personally, the first one doesn’t bother me much. It’s still inconvenient - it gives me less control over my image and older content I may not like anymore is still making its way around and representing me/my content, but overall there’s no real feeling of being violated because as you mentioned, I did post these publicly.
I also think it’s unfair for you to lose access to content you paid for on OF. I understand the desire to want to download content. I don’t think most creators have a problem with the downloading of their content, they only worry that it makes it easier for it to be leaked which is why they enabled DRM. So once again, real fans/consumers would benefit if it wasn’t for the threat of leaks.
Model accountability - I agree this is a huge issue and there’s no great solution for it at the moment. It makes sense to want to be able to discuss things with other fans and I fully support that aspect of this site. Ideally, I’d like to be a part of these discussions. I’m very transparent and would always be willing to explain why I do things a certain way and to give insight into the “behind the scenes” stuff & my thoughts on certain things. The worst that can happen is we agree to disagree. I’m an open book so if you do have questions, send them my way!

The last thing I want to mention that you may not have considered is that the reason leaks are so devastating is because once leaked, it will get shared on 100s of sites and will never be able to be fully erased again. People will try to profit off of my work and try to sell access to it. Others will use it to catfish. In general, knowing it will never go away and I’ll never be able to escape it is a very uncomfortable feeling.

In all honesty, if this was a confined, private space where a few guys wanted to essentially each pay for a different PPV to save money, I wouldn’t mind nearly as much. It wouldn’t be ideal, as it may hurt me financially and I wouldn’t have control over exactly who sees my content, but it would have nowhere near the same psychological effect on me as having something publicly posted on the internet for everyone to see. I guess that’s the last thing I want to leave you with - if you must share content, please consider doing it in a more private manner.

Lila 💗
 
Thank you for giving me more insight on why people choose to share leaks, it's definitely given me more to think about. I tend to see the best in people and I don't assume that all leaks are shared with malice (although I'm sure some are) and I think there's often just a lack of consideration for how it would make the creator feel. Here are my personal thoughts and experiences with leaks:
  • I think one of the greatest things about Onlyfans is the power it gives the creator. I created one to express my sexual side and I genuinely enjoy the thought of others watching me, but I want control over who it is. When it comes to my full length PPV videos, I film them with the intention that only those who I feel truly appreciate me will see it. When I attach a price tag to a video, that price isn't what I think will maximize profits or anything like that. That price is what I personally value the video at, and I only want those who agree with that value to watch it. I understand that it's not accessible or reasonable for everyone to pay that price, and I'm okay with losing sales due to that. I understand that those that are willing to buy my content as opposed to only consuming free porn do it because they care enough about seeing me specifically. This is the audience I create my videos for - the ones who value my content as more than "just another porn video".
  • My videos are very personal to me. I only film when I'm genuinely in the mood, which is why I usually only have 1-3 new PPV a month. I choose to only create content with a genuine orgasm and a real display of me enjoying myself. It features my real voice, real moans, real dirty talk, and real orgasms. It really does turn me on to share this side of myself with those who have come to value this about me, but it's never been meant for a wide audience. When these videos get leaked it feels so violating because it's my real vulnerable self on display, not a character or a performance.
  • There was a period of time where my videos were being leaked almost immediately after I released them. When I film a new video I'm genuinely excited and proud of it and so immediately losing all control over it was really painful. It's not just about the financial effects, if I wanted to counteract that I could release 3 vids a week so there's always something new that hasn't been leaked yet but I wouldn't be staying true to myself. Honestly, this experience really made me want to stop filming altogether. I didn't know how to make content that’s raw and vulnerable while accepting that it would immediately be made public against my will. I still find it harder to let go and be my natural self on camera now and as a result I film myself less frequently.
  • This leads to my last point which is that the threat of leaks negatively affects the quality of content. For example, I decided to start creating partial face content because I had the desire to share even more of myself with those who I thought were loyal fans. Getting those leaked has been the most devastating, and this is further amplified because I feel like my privacy is in jeopardy. I'm much more likely to get identified in those videos and I only intended for them to be seen by a small audience of my most loyal fans. At this point, even though I would love to create some full-face content one day, I don't feel like it's an option. I'm a lot more distrustful and it would be stupid for me to risk those being leaked with how serious the potential consequences could be.

Now to address a few of your points:
I agree that there’s a big difference between resharing content that I publicly posted for free vs PPV. Personally, the first one doesn’t bother me much. It’s still inconvenient - it gives me less control over my image and older content I may not like anymore is still making its way around and representing me/my content, but overall there’s no real feeling of being violated because as you mentioned, I did post these publicly.
I also think it’s unfair for you to lose access to content you paid for on OF. I understand the desire to want to download content. I don’t think most creators have a problem with the downloading of their content, they only worry that it makes it easier for it to be leaked which is why they enabled DRM. So once again, real fans/consumers would benefit if it wasn’t for the threat of leaks.
Model accountability - I agree this is a huge issue and there’s no great solution for it at the moment. It makes sense to want to be able to discuss things with other fans and I fully support that aspect of this site. Ideally, I’d like to be a part of these discussions. I’m very transparent and would always be willing to explain why I do things a certain way and to give insight into the “behind the scenes” stuff & my thoughts on certain things. The worst that can happen is we agree to disagree. I’m an open book so if you do have questions, send them my way!

The last thing I want to mention that you may not have considered is that the reason leaks are so devastating is because once leaked, it will get shared on 100s of sites and will never be able to be fully erased again. People will try to profit off of my work and try to sell access to it. Others will use it to catfish. In general, knowing it will never go away and I’ll never be able to escape it is a very uncomfortable feeling.

In all honesty, if this was a confined, private space where a few guys wanted to essentially each pay for a different PPV to save money, I wouldn’t mind nearly as much. It wouldn’t be ideal, as it may hurt me financially and I wouldn’t have control over exactly who sees my content, but it would have nowhere near the same psychological effect on me as having something publicly posted on the internet for everyone to see. I guess that’s the last thing I want to leave you with - if you must share content, please consider doing it in a more private manner.

Lila 💗
Thank you for giving this very honest, cordial, and articulate response. I understand your feelings a lot better and that's helpful for me as a member of this community. I will continue to be mindful of everything you've written here (and have bookmarked it as a constant reminder). You're a genuine one and I want to thank for you that and express my appreciation of you. I'm sure everyone else who reads your words will get it too. Thanks again. 🌈
 
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